(Started writing 05/20/2013)
I can’t really describe it.
I was having an extremely vivid dream and then woke up suddenly at 3:30 AM. I had an extremely unusual pain in my right temple and a persistent thought in my head closely related to the dream, and yet still, somehow, it came out of nowhere. It was strange, not only because of the pain that I could find no cause for, but also because I wasn’t all that irritated by it.
I mean, I don’t know how to describe it. I said that already, but it’s true. I really don’t. How do you describe suddenly waking up with an epiphany?
About the persistent thought, well…I thought at first, “Okay, I’ll look up info on that later today,” and I tried to go back to sleep, but that pain came back. So I turned on my phone and went searching! The pain went away, and after a bit of searching it all made sense.
There are so many more opportunities and possibilities that I never thought of before, that I never even considered. I have been so closed-minded in thinking of only one or two ways to do some things…going to Japan, selling art prints, making manga, writing… I’ve mentioned this before, but I think I’ve been so closed-minded–maybe so focused on just one way, one thing–that I haven’t let God do much.
Basically, I realized that I can go to Japan and do more than just go to school or whatever…being afraid of not being able to communicate is something that only comes from my level of Japanese NOW which, if I keep learning, will not be any problem later on. I realized that I can do more here in the US too. I can do commissions and sell prints and artbooks and things like that, yes, but my skills aren’t limited to those things–what if I did other things (that I also enjoy) to bring in money that I can give to the 20/20 Vision, save up to buy an iMac, and save up for going to Japan? I realized that I can’t sit idly by and expect everything to fall in my lap. There are so many opportunities around me and all I have to do is move!
It’s so simple, yet so mind-blowing! Haha.
If you want something bad enough, you will go after it. You won’t wait around on others to decide things for you, or silently hope someone will notice you and your halfhearted efforts and give you the opportunity of a lifetime or fulfill all your dreams for free. I’ve said it before–I have to trust God and do my part.